| tears
by immortalfiend
what is a tear?
to some a tear is
simply a tear
a small drop of salt water
that gently rolls down your face.
but to some.
to some a tear is more
to some a tear is regret.
a tear can represent the pain
the pain of regret
regret for an action that should not have been taken
or for an action that should have been.
for some a tear is a memory.
a memory of a loved one lost.
or a memory of a lost oppertunity.
for me a tear means everything.
for me a tear is life
for me a tear is death.
i have shead tears enough to know every tear.
i have shead a tear for everything.
i have shead simple tears
i have shead tears of regret
and many time shead tears of memory.
i have had tears fall to my clothes
i have had them fall to the pages of a notebook
or sometimes just roll to the pillow as i lay
i lay wishing for either sleep or death to save me from my pain.
but all to often have i shead tears for one reason.
all to often i shead tears for you. |
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| tears
by immortalfiend
what is a tear?
to some a tear is
simply a tear
a small drop of salt water
that gently rolls down your face.
but to some.
to some a tear is more
to some a tear is regret.
a tear can represent the pain
the pain of regret
regret for an action that should not have been taken
or for an action that should have been.
for some a tear is a memory.
a memory of a loved one lost.
or a memory of a lost oppertunity.
for me a tear means everything.
for me a tear is life
for me a tear is death.
i have shead tears enough to know every tear.
i have shead a tear for everything.
i have shead simple tears
i have shead tears of regret
and many time shead tears of memory.
i have had tears fall to my clothes
i have had them fall to the pages of a notebook
or sometimes just roll to the pillow as i lay
i lay wishing for either sleep or death to save me from my pain.
but all to often have i shead tears for one reason.
all to often i shead tears for you. |
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| the light
by immortalfiend
when i stuggle
i close my eyes
when i close my eyes
i see you
when i see you
i can make it
i can make it through anything.
before you i would close my eyes
but all i would see was darkness.
darkness that pulled me down.
i had been pulled down to the bottom
to the bottom of a great cliff
over the top i see the sun.
but i cant escape the dark.
then i found you
i closed my eyes and saw you
i started to lift.
i started to climb
i could see the light.
but then i pushed you away.
i dont know why
but i pushed you
and all i did was push myself back down
this time further than before.
but you fought
you would not let me die alone
you fought back to my side.
with you back with me i could see you.
but i only see you with closed eyes
then i made it to the top of the cliff.
i see the light.
the light was never the sun.
the light was you
an angel glowing so bright
an angel that saved me.
you were my light. |
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| climbing eternity again
by immortalfiend
my hands tremble
my stomach knots
im going to be sick
i cant take this
she begs to know who it is i feel for
she is obliviouse that its her
she begs me to tell her
i cant do it
i feel for her with all my heart
she has held my heart in her hands so ling
but i wont tell her
even when im with another girl
i still think about her
i still miss her
i cant take it
i want to crawl to her
i want to tell her
but i wont
you cut me open to find my heart
but you find only empty space
she has owned my heart forever
she has owned my heart and my very soul
ill tell her
i cant take this anymore
i tell her of my feelings
but i dont tell her completely
she tells me she has feelings for me too
i feel as though i reached to top of a cliff
a cliff i had climbed for etirnity
i climbed so long and finally reached her
the light pours over me
everything is right now
nothing could go wrong
but she tells me she wont have me
she tells me she cant be with me
she says she cant ruin us
i wonder how this could ruin us
a breeze comes
it knocks me down
i hit the ground so far off
everybone in my body breaks
i am left in nothingness
i am left bleeding and broken
i am left to climb eternity again |
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| alone i slowly die
by : immortalfiend
i see her walking toward me.
i cant believe its her.
i have never seen her but i just know.
she walks toward me.
she is so beautiful.
the closer she gets to me the less i believe it.
we begin to walk together.
we talk like old friends but new as well
we are not alone.
they are with us but to me they do not exist.
to me it is just me and her.
walking into eternity.
then i find myself in a new place.
but i have the same feeling.
it is still just me and her.
as she sits there on my lap
i think of how i could spend all my life with her.
i hold her hand and i caress her body.
then i find us laying there in the bed together.
there is nothing sexual.
there is only love.
at least there is love from me.
i hold her in my arms.
she does nothing.
i begin to wonder does she feel for me as i do her.
then we must be torn apart.
i hold her in my arms again.
it feels like forever
but she is then taken from me.
only after she is taken do i learn she cares for me as well.
but i also learn that she wont have me.
so now i know she cares for me
i also know she wont be with me
but i am left not knowing why.
it is only those i truly care for.
they just wont be with me.
am i left to die alone.
am i to sit alone in a pool of pain left from forgotten love.
i see this is true.
i have given up.
love is not for me.
no one i truly love will love me.
so i sit.
i sit alone.
and as i sit i slowly die. |
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